Recently I read a blogger's article on graduate moms who quit working so that they would be able to run the house and care for the kids. All mommies, graduate or not, have the options of whether they want to work or not. We have various working opportunities in Malaysia. Whether the pay is good or not, it's an entirely different story, and of course it depends on whether you have qualifications or not. These mommies, especially the graduates, may choose to quit working because they want to care for their kids especially after giving birth. I have not quit my job. I'm on unpaid leave until September. It's January and thinking that I have to leave my kids and let other people take over my routine since April 2011 bring tears to my eyes.
Is it wrong to love what I currently do? It's crazy having to run around sending/fetching kids from school and tuition centre but I do love the hectic schedule! I was asked many times by relatives and friends about the reasons why I want to quit/opt for an early retirement. As many of you know, I'm one project paper away from graduating (M.Ed). I was asked many times on why I did it in the first place! Truth is, I wanted to have a PHD. I wanted to be a lecturer/academician. However, things have changed. Many things have happened since March 2011. I have reevaluated my priorities. One thing for sure, kids (and hubby la, of course) are my priority!
Since then, I underwent a lot of changes. I started baking and cake decorating, started my small online biz...and recently I started sewing! Unbelievable!!! Syima can sew? hahaha....Something must be wrong with me somewhere... I truly love my life now! Hey, I'm no angel! I get angry when the kids don't want to listen to me, I get frustrated when the house is in a mess and oh boy....I can nag the kids.... even papa noticed that mama is getting better at nagging! I'm becoming more and more like a housewife (no offense to other housewives, ya! This is not an insult as I understand that we nag because we vent out our frustration through nagging!)
Is it so wrong to enjoy watching the kids got happy when mama was able to sew something for them? Is it wrong that I love my kitchen sink to be sparkling clean? Is it wrong for me to love my kids more than I love my job? I'm a changed person and I know that it's for the better. I know my purpose in life and I know what I want out of my life! My journey of acquiring the Degree and Master (soon to be, InsyaAllah) has made me stronger. Had it not been for my Degree, I wouldn't be able to meet my hubby and the wonderful people in UUM. Had I not met my hubby, I wouldn't be able to have 3 daughters! Had I married somebody else who knows I would have gotten 3 boys! (hehe....jgn marah ye Mr Boss! Ini perumpamaan ye... perumpaman tau... sila faham....kalau tak faham, nanti Pemahaman dapat B!) ;-p
In conclusion, people have various reasons for doing what they do! They may do it for themselves or they may do it for their loved ones! They make choices! Some made choices that benefit them and some made choices that benefit others! Like what I always tell my students, We have to make choices everyday. We choose to go school or choose to sleep. We choose to wake up early or late. We choose to wear red tudung over green one etc. Whatever our choices may be, please make sure the choices made benefit us and the people around us! Most important, make sure the choices made will eventually lead us to the path of Jannah, insyaAllah!
