Banyak perkara yang terlintas di fikiran as I type my resignation letter. Nak menitik jugak air mata.... tempat jatuh lagi dikenang, inikan pula tempat mencari rezeki..... Hakikatnya, it's not that I don't want to resign, hubby never insisted I stay at home....in fact, he's worried if people think that he's the one who asked me to resign. Memang banyak kenangan suka duka sepanjang bergelar guru...... I still remember pergi praktikal waktu dalam pantang... it was only 21 days after delivery.... or less than that? Kena tinggal Sarah, jalan kaki jauh sangat lepas balik kerja sebab kereta ada satu aje masa tu. Nak duduk pun sakit dan beralaskan kusyen coz my tear was..... ye la 3.6kg utk 1st born...(effect dia sampai sekarang hokey!) Hubby pergi audit so he needed a car. On certain days hubby tak outstation baru I got to drive the car. Demam lagi masa dalam pantang tu.... isy, macam2....
Dah ada anak pulak, menolak stroller anak cari teksi tengahari buta bawak beg sekolah dgn buku2 sekolah.....gosh...you younger peeps are lucky...especially those who come from well to do families.....Muda2 dah ada kereta, muda2 dah beli rumah. Kitaorang duduk menyewa 3 buah rumah before finally beli rumah. Hey, don't get me wrong, Bila kita start dari susah, kita appreciate more apa yang kita ada sekarang and not take things for granted! Bersyukurlah bagi yang tak perlu bersusah payah dalam mengharungi kehidupan. Hakikatnya everyday is a struggle, ye tak? Lain orang, lain strugglenya. Anyway, back to my resignation letter.....baru harini tulih....sebabnya masih lagi mengharap agar dapat tambahan cuti lagi....tapi sorry ye....either I work or resign....I chose to resign....mana nak cari orang jaga budak2 nih? Transport lagi....sigh......takpe....saya sanggup berkorban untuk berkhidmat jadi supir anak2 asalkan I know they're in safe hands-my hands....insyaAllah.....
So, resignation letter is ready and sent to the office....... menyesal? At the moment insyaAllah no. Que sera sera......buat apa susah hati nak fikir masa depan.....I'll take one step at a time....kan Allah dah janjikan rezeki untuk setiap makhluknya? True, I'll never know what's going to happen in the future tapi.....
